Rediscovering My Spark and the Healing Power of Horses

It’s often said that life is a journey of discovery. For me, this journey has been filled with significant highs and lows. The loss of my mom was one of the most life-altering moments that left my passions in limbo. Reflecting on my experience with showing horses, I realize how deeply it impacted both my spirit and my purpose.

For a long time after her passing, I felt like I had lost my spark. Showing horses, which once brought me immense joy, became a burden. The vibrant colors of my life faded into a dull, grey existence. I lacked the motivation to engage with the world around me, let alone care for myself.

The Initial Struggle

Grief has a remarkable way of stripping away the facade we show the world. I tried to hold it together, pretending I was fine when, in truth, I was far from it. The passion I once had for showing horses was overshadowed by an overwhelming sense of loss.

The shows that used to excite me turned into reminders of my sorrow. Despite being surrounded by supportive fellow equestrians, I felt disconnected. I was haunted by the void left by my mom. It was difficult to acknowledge that I simply wasn’t okay.

A Brief Resurgence

Then, out of the blue, I experienced a flicker of my old self. This occurred when I stumbled upon an old photo of my mom and me at a horse show. I felt a surge of inspiration. I started to engage again with the horses and the exhilarating atmosphere. This sense of rebirth was welcomed, even if it was brief.

However, I quickly recognized that I hadn't fully addressed my grief. The unresolved emotions shadowed my attempts to embrace this newfound passion. As a result, I slipped back into neglecting myself, which further dimmed that flickering spark.

Embracing Healing and Self-Discovery

Hitting my lowest point was pivotal. I realized that it was time to strip away the masks I had worn. I began to ask myself tough questions: Who am I without my mom? What truly brings me happiness? Could I genuinely reclaim my passion for horses?

Through this introspective process, I discovered something important. I was not meant to be merely a rider; I was called to something deeper. I recognized that I could find healing in the bond between humans and horses. This realization reignited my excitement and grounded me in a sense of purpose. I felt liberated knowing I didn't have to conform to the mold of a competitor. My path was evolving toward something more meaningful.

Finding Purpose in Healing Horses

Now, I’ve embarked on a mission to provide traveling horse-assisted Reiki sessions. This initiative serves a dual purpose: to help others experience the healing power of horses in the comfort of their own backyards and to reaffirm my identity as a healer rather than just a competitor.

Horse-assisted Reiki blends gentle energy work with the therapeutic presence of horses. Research shows that over 70% of individuals who engage in animal-assisted therapy report significant improvements in emotional well-being. This unique healing experience allows people to connect with their true selves while benefiting from the calming auras of these magnificent animals.

Prioritizing Family and Self-Care

In pursuing this new direction, I make it a priority to focus on my family, especially my daughter Emma and her interest in showing horses. Emma inspires me daily, reminding me of the joy and purpose inherent in this beautiful equestrian world. While I may not be currently showing horses myself, I take immense pride in supporting her and witnessing her progress.

This shift in focus has helped me recalibrate my life. It fosters not only my healing journey but also the vital relationships I cherish. I’ve learned that true wellness stems from self-care—something I neglected for far too long.

The Journey Continues

Every healing journey has its twists and turns. I firmly believe that the road to rediscovery is rich and fulfilling. While loss can dim the things we love, it opens the door to new opportunities.

By embracing my passion for helping others bond with horses and discovering my true self in the process, I am rediscovering my spark and what it means to heal. What was once a competitive drive has morphed into a mission grounded in compassion and support.

Although I may not be in the show pen at the moment, I’m focused on what is most meaningful: my healing business, my family, and the incredible potential ahead. Life is an evolving journey that continues to shape and inspire me through my relationship with horses.

Reflecting on Healing and Growth

As I navigate this healing journey, I embrace every lesson that comes my way. I have come to accept that it’s okay not to be okay. Sometimes, we must lose a part of ourselves to rediscover our true calling. The bond I share with horses, my family, and my newfound healing purpose has taught me that the spark I thought was lost can indeed be reignited.

In sharing my journey, I invite others to explore their paths of healing through the remarkable connection we have with these beautiful creatures. From workshops to one-on-one sessions, the healing power of horses awaits those ready to take that transformative step. Together, let’s rediscover our spark!